Why do people expect you to be there for them when they were never there for you.
Why do people expect you to be there for them when they were never there for you.
Under the school logo, center stage
The principal beckoned me up, announced my name
I had to make a speech of the class’ coming of age
I was nervous, for these conversations were always the same
I slowly climbed the stairs and faced the hundreds of people. I was only eighteen.
With a crackling voice I pushed out the first words
And spoke of memories and moments to come
All my classmates’ fantasies were soaring like birds
And parents were sad, going numb
For their babies were growing up, leaving high school. I was only eighteen.
As I stood at the podium recalling how we’ve grown
I looked all around me, observing the faces of my peers
I was overcome with emotion but wouldn’t dare let it be shown
For I was thinking about change and a countless number of fears
In that moment I realized life was moving fast. I was only eighteen.
I ended the lecture with a “Hooray!”
And walked off stage to the sound of applause
Everyone’s mood was jubilant, however mine was only turning gray
These goodbyes meant no more hellos, I was mad life couldn’t pause.
When the principle said the final congrats all my associates stood up and clapped
And I sat there, only eighteen.
I can feel you.
Your stare on my back.
The glance from across the room.
How when you hug me it’s as if you never want to let go.I also feel you letting go.
Slowly but surely falling apart from your tight grasp.
Wanting to be there but also away.
Away from the pain.I want you to stay.
If you told me I was beautiful I wouldn’t believe you because no one could be as beautiful as you.
Somebody just take me away to a place where I can be happy and love people and they will love me back. Pleaseee.